BACKLIGHT

feeling left out, hands deep in pockets, trying to keep my mind wandering away from the nothingness i am attempting to cast over myself.

i've felt so empty, and as days pass, the sinking feeling that haunts my every thought is getting harder to bare. there is no simple escape from the torture, i'm on my feet running from pain - directionless, i have found myself here, without love, without hope.

i have given everything to break into this guard you have built - and it's because of my actions you have changed, you're not the person i know, you're no longer someone i want to be around.

i can't help but blame myself, and now that i have looked back, i guess it's safe to say that it was my fault. i was the one who left you, i was the one who made you feel unwanted.

isn't it funny how things always have their own way of happening over?

my life is a broken record player, being rewound and repeated, everything is being played over in my mind.

i guess i just wish things could have been different for the both of us.

i fear every moment spent with you, was a moment wasted.