I.O.U.

CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL

AFFAIR

i hate her, she loves me.

TL?

i don't really have much to share.
a lot of personal things have happened to me of late.
i have changed, for the better?
i don't know.
i miss the days when things weren't so complex, but who doesn't.

SIKE

blkout/ miles away with luis, jess and myself.

SUCH IS LIFE

just when i think things are finally working out, it all takes a turn for the worse and i'm stuck in the same fucked position.

1:50PM

i was only ever good enough for you when you needed me.

i couldn't care less if we aren't friends. i'm embarrassed of the fact that i even considered you a friend.

you have changed for the worse, and i don't want to know you anymore.

good riddance fake.

fuck you.

PLAYTIME

fig 1. sometimes i feel i'm far to negative for my own good.

fig 2. it's a big world out there.

GODLESS

i guess i'm just tired of 10 year olds running around with inverted-crosses maked all over their bodies screaming "hail satan!". if you can believe in the opposite of the catholic god (or anti-christ), how can you not accept that there is a catholic god?

think of it this way:

if you were to be standing on a path looking in one direction, does that mean that the path behind you doesn't exist? no, it does exist, weather you choose to acknowledge it or not

ஃ, rationally thinking, you should believe the whole story, right?

"the inverted cross is the sign of the fisherman, peter, who was crucified upside down. this use by the roman catholic pope goes back in ancient history to the 1st century. this valid christian use of the inverted cross, pre-dates contemporary thinking that an upside down cross is associated with satanism. it is in fact, old christian symbol for the martyrdom of st. peter. the inverted cross has no meaning at all to religious satanists."

does this mean you are all fisherman? or are you trying to show you are not worthy of being crucified up-right as some one named jesus apparently was?

is it that you are simply trying go against the grain of society?

just because you don't believe in something, doesn't mean you need to preach for some opposition. each and every person can make up their own mind about what they chose to believe in. quit being so judgmental and/or passive to people that have different views to you.

if you are that narrow-minded that you need a symbol to show you are superior to the rest of the world, at least think up something original, rather than taking someone else's sign and flipping it upside down.

find faith within yourself.

FACT FROM FICTION

you sit in the comfort of my own self-pity, staring endlessly inside this window.

you see no reflection of self, but a false pretense.

i have grown so tired of this facade, a misrepresentation of so many people trying to be something they are not. the constant search for acceptance has broken you into a new "half-person", you are no longer living for yourself, you no longer care for your own happiness. everything thing you do/ say, is for someone else.

if you are trying to be someone else, you more than likely won't notice.

self-doubt has led you into this hierarchy of popularity.

"we are not your real friends, we are all out, only to better ourselves".

if only they were honest enough to accept the fact that they do think they are better than you, they do think that they deserve a better seat in this place i call hell.

lies are fueled by more lies, truth is something of the past.

is this who you want to be?

i regret to inform you that, if you think you know who your friends are, you're sorely mistaken.